Wrote a song about it. Like to hear it? Here it goes......

(Verse 1)

As I sit here thinking to myself, I turn back the pages of my life and reflect.
On the old me and the things I did, And when it came to church I wasn't interested.

In fact the only time I went was Easter, and that's cause moms made me
sitting in a pew, dressed up in a monkey suit,
a frown on my face saying to myself, "Shoot!"
I'll be glad when I get out of here
stand up kneel down that's all I hear

You see I couldn't receive it
and since I couldn't receive it
I guess I didn't believe it

But anyway time move on
a whole different scene and I was now a teen
a brand new neighborhood
a catholic school far away
cause the school in my hood was no good.

But even though I attended a school with a religious name
I never changed
God wasn't one of my priorities
It was all about self and getting me some glory

Then my next door neighbor
told my family about this Savior
and that belief in Him
was guaranteed to save ya

(Verse 2)

Well my father really took an interest
and really felt the need of repentance
and church attendance
every Sunday, He really, really, really insisted

Here we go again was the thought that came to mind
but I was blind and could not see
the loving God that was calling me

In fact, the only thing I could think about was how could a man who did certain things in his life, one day start doing good?

Hmmm! To me it just didn't click
He seemed to become a religious fanatic
One day I was watching cable, yo!
He ripped it out the wall and said that it was to sinful

If this is what a Christian is,
I wants no parts of that life to live
I rebelled because of what I saw, My family got baptized, and I just watched sister, moms, and pops
get born again and I stayed in sin
so thank you God for not bringing my life to an end

Seven more years of my life had gone by
and through that time many seeds were planted
but I was still the same
a contestant in line trying to win life's game

I even had a lady tell me about the rapture
Then I dreamed I was left, what a disaster
I woke up in a cold sweat
screaming "don't leave me!" and my clothes were wet

Soon there after C.O. invited me to church, so I thought I'd check it out
The choir was singin, the music was jamming,
The people were praising, Yo, this church is slamming

But one thing bothered me, the people had something I didn't see in me

The were screaming and jumping and yelling
and seemed to be so happy
Then I found out that Jesus was the cause of their joyous state
but I couldn't relate
and in my mind were two voices warring with a steady debate

"Go on down there get yourself saved! "
"Don't listen to him they'll laugh you away!"
"Hey man, this your chance to get it right!"
" Awe man, you can do that next Sunday night!"

Boom! So there I sat
denying, delaying as my souls decaying
For about a year and a half you see
the devil really had his hands on me

Then in the Christmas of 87' this was the time for me to get straight
I'll called my ex-girlfriend and she told me that she turned gay.

And on Christmas day I called up a girl I knew to work that mistletoe charm
but I was sad to hear that her 15 year old sister just died in her arms

Then right there I knew that God was calling me and what I had to do
So on January three of eighty-eight,
to Jesus Christ my life I gave

And that's why God has done so much for me
You don't know like I know
I was lost, now I'm found
He planted my feet on higher ground
I was in sin, and took me in
He saved my soul and made me whole...

From the Explosion 2000 LP Copyright 1991